A Reflection on December

It’s that time again, and another month has gone by. I’m actually pretty surprised I’m still in it. Here goes, Best, Worst, Weirdest for the month of December.

The Best

The best thing about December was that, for the first time ever, I got Christmas off from this company. Korea isn’t really big on celebrating Christmas, but my academy is infamous for missing red days due to parent demands. It was a great day off, and I spent it meaningfully with new friends. I’m beginning to venture out more and be more okay being by myself and with other people. Getting Christmas Day off was a great mood booster, and a nice little “reset” day before all hell broke loose for Intensives. I have been socializing a lot more as of this month and it’s been great for, not only myself, but my personal relationship with my significant other. Not limiting myself to just a few people that I can go to when I need to reach out has been great.

The Worst

There were a lot of things about December that I could describe as “the worst.” I honestly can’t choose one. Despite being more outgoing and having more things going on, I still find myself with this heavy weight of depression that seems to keep me in bed longer than I ever want. I went through a few weeks of no therapy due to my therapist being on vacation. I realized not having those goals to work toward every week was ineffective for me. I also realized that I couldn’t keep relying on therapy to keep me motivated. The point of therapy was to be able to make and achieve my own goals. I was also feeling like I was hitting a slump in therapy where I wasn’t making progress, and it wasn’t helping me. But I realized it was because I was limiting the topics and aspects that i wanted to talk about. I desperately did not want to talk about my past relationships and I definitely didn’t want to do any talking about my childhood.

The Weirdest

This legitimately happened. I was walking around Yongji Lake in town on one of the last days of the year, and a woman tried to take Dobby! She walked up to me, said something in Korea, and took the leash out of my hands. I jogged after her to get Dobby back, and I really, really wish I knew what she said to me, so that it didn’t feel like this lady was trying to steal my dog.